I feel completely numb. Empty. I don't honestly have a reason to leave bed for the rest of the week; quite possibly the rest of the month. I really wouldn't mind not leaving the rest of the year or the rest of my life. I have no reason to.

Brave

I don't know just where I'm going
And tomorrow is a little overwhelming
And the air is cold and I'm not the same anymore.
I've been running in your direction for too long now,
Lost my own reflection and I can't look down
If you're not there to catch me when I fall.
If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
All along, all I ever wanted was to be the light
When your life was daunting but I can't see mine,
When I feel as though you're pushing me away.
Well who's to blame? Are we making the right choices?
'Cause we can't be sure, if we're hearing our own voices,
As we close the door, even though we are so desperate to stay.
If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life,
I can't be afraid 'cause it's my turn to be brave.
And I might still cry,
And I might still bleed,
These thorns in my side,
This heart on my sleeve.
And lightening my strike this ground at my feet,
And I might still crash,
But I still believe...This is the moment I stand here all alone,
With everything I have inside, everything I own,
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave.
If this is the last time before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life,
I can't be afraid it's my turn to be brave.